Deadly Din

Promises, kept and broken
Words minced, said, left undone
Sleeping princess was just woken
Too late, very high up was the sun

Pandora’s pot, once filled, now emptied
Hush in the air, amidst fitful gushes
Heartless, spineless, bickered, quibbled
Vividly recalling the quondam celestial touches

A deadly silence in a din
No grudges, not all wars you win
A loud thud in a lethal still
Finally decking beloved at own will

Star, you still shine bright in a moonless sky
You are both angel and demon within you
Voice choked, dry of sadness, full of wry
All known now is, if only it was, but true

Of all surreal dreams, this one was for real
No pain, no rue, no trepidation to feel
Sails set to go, amidst the storm
Bereft of the summer’s chill; the winter’s warm

It was just another of the species
A man, a dog, a snake that hisses
Shameless coward, was blurted loud for a mile
Those words girthed around for a while

Spineless, heartless, shameless; all said and done
But still like the cited coward there was none
Only of its kind, the innocence and charm
Words which never wanted to cause any harm

Life is all but true
Just the same, in all its hue
Yet…
Nothing’s new, nothing’s new

-Ships

After note:
This post is about many-a-those situations you deal with in life in real. Severing ties with a beloved; or mourning a loved one’s demise…

Just felt like penning down a few words. When I started writing, I had both these situations at the back of my mind. One of unkept promises, sarcasm and hurt; and the other of a girl’s ire against God, who she thinks is a coward to have stolen her dad from her like that – when all was well and he was ready to go home hale and hearty; almost like stabbing from behind, spineless Almighty…

I wanted to write both the things in one-piece and this is what I could deliver. Read it differently for both the situations. Don’t know if it does justice to any of the two.

Random Ramblings of a Slapdash Girl!

Got tagged by a friend... hence jotted down 25 random things about myself!

1. SHIkha (My mom) + PRAfulla (My dad) = SHIPRA (Meeee.. :))
I often get annoyed when people don’t pronounce my name properly. I have often been called “Shilpa”, “Sherpa”, “Chitra” etc etc

2. My parents wedding album was destroyed and neither did they have a marriage certificate. So while applying for mom’s passport, they could not technically prove they were married – which means we were illegal kids! :D They filed an affidavit and married last year officially!! Now, I am a legal kid :)

3. I was born on the 10th of December, supposedly the Human Rights Day!

4. I am a little Alice in her wonderland – Day dreaming is my forte. I sometimes land in unknown planets and fight wars with aliens!

5. Dad made me believe I was a princess, and bought me up quite like one. As a kid, when I went to my dida’s village for summer vacations, I threw tantrums “I need cold fridge water right now” and she got me cold water from an earthern matka. I demanded, I need to inspect the fridge, she showed it to me and said – “This is the latest offering in the market, called the mini-fridge!”

6. Also, when I was little, my dida’s village had no electricity. So when there was lightening in the sky, my dida would tell me, “Look, look, there’s electricity!” and I would fall for that!

7. My dad used to drop me to my nursery school on his Hero-Honda and I sat proudly on the petrol tank in front. I thought I was riding the bike myself! :D Later, we got our car, and I had grown up a bit… alas I couldn’t sit on his lap and drive the car!

8. I have been a very naughty kid. However, always managed to be all my teachers’ pet.

9. In Std. 2, I fought with a little boy and tore his uniform :D (After that, whenever we chased each other, he would hide in the boy’s toilet! *sigh*)

10. I like surprising loved ones with random little gifts, sometimes when it is least expected. 2 days back on my parents’ wedding anniversary, I surprised them with a suhagraat flower-setting in their room. They were mighty embarrassed!

11. In my B-school, some friends played a prank and changed my laptop’s name. So anyone who tried downloading from my computer on the LAN could read “downloading from Rolakutty - The Porn Star’s lappie”… eeeks!

12. I used to scare my little bro with cockroaches. I took pride in holding them by their tentacles! Poor kid used to be freaked out by the very sight!

13. I tried to suffocate my infant sister and kill her, because suddenly mom-dad loved her more (I was the only child till age 7)! The reason I gave was – dad bought her 26 new dresses, and got me only 2 :( Btw, my 2 cost thrice of her 26. But how would that matter to a 7 yr old kid!

14. I learnt driving very early – illegal I know. But, I rode my uncle’s motor-cycle and across the India-Bangladesh border at 15! The BSF jawans totally adored my presence, as I entertained them with Bombay life tit-bits!

15. I got my parents and myself to the front page of the Times of India. No, I had not murdered anyone, nor did I win the Oscars – but I just managed to top the 12th board exams. Don’t ask me how… Some people claim, I stuck Rs. 500 notes on my answer sheets!

16. I have been fined Rs. 100 for wearing jeans & a top to a college in the city of glamour, read Mumbai (apparently, girls were supposed to wear only Indian clothes in there… *phew*)

17. I still kiss my parents goodbye every morning when I leave for work. I have been doing this since my kindergarten days…

18. I am a very talkative person. I can go on and on and on…

19. I am ultra-romantic at heart… I love azure skies, ocean blue waters, mild winters… I have my ideas about someone being made specially for me. Dil to Pagal Hai types!

20. I love traveling.

21. One of my close buddies told me years ago – “You sound sexy on the phone” and I would still love to believe its true ;)

22. I got an award titled “My wardrobe can dress half of Africa” – That’s self explanatory I guess!

23. I am a lazy bum. I hate walking. I seldom take the train or the bus.

24. My ambitions in life have kept vacillating. I wanted to become a doctor to take revenge with Dr. XYZ who injected a crappy thing in me when I was 6. Later I wanted to be a tempo-driver who delivered “Peppy” chips to the grocery store downstairs. (Rationale was – I would own all the chips packets in the tempo, and would not need to ask mom every time for it!)

25. I think one day I will make it Big – Where, when, how etc. I don’t know. :) Amen!

-Ships