All The Words And The Silence…

Candid me spoke to you about all the men in my life

You never detailed the no woman in your life.

You love me because I am compelling...

Worse is that I know of it, still feigning…

I’m scared you might stop loving me as much someday

Afraid you might be gone whilst alone here I lay.

You claim to have discovered me in and out,

But I am scared you know nothing of what I am about.

The real me you discover might not be alike,
Or more so you might pretend the stranger in me you still like.

So I preempt and become what you want me to be,

Coiffe things the way you like to see.

Oblivious of my true self, I stopped being me,

Unknowingly or otherwise, had made you my destiny…

Together in the magnificent cabriolet, we sojourn

I lift my hair slowly, to show you the earring I adorn

The one sparkling lease of life you’d once gifted me

And filled my heart with endless glee…

You never explicitly expressed how special I was to you

I meant more than that to you, but I knew.

Although it would have been nice to hear it in your own quiet

Your suppressed smirk quite made a lovely sight.

A shining diamond which is hard to miss

I don’t tell you to caress my hair or blow a silent kiss

Like always, you don’t understand it either.

I turn to the window and shed a silent tear.

Nothing seems to matter anymore

Yet everything does matter…

Angels pass by

The uncomfort subdues…

You still are what I call ‘my’

Time again for a truce…

There are times I want to hear from you

Interim I promise myself, Oh this one last time…

Then again, I wait,

Wait a little more…

And I call…

End it with a fight, a silent promise chalked…

I won’t call again

But alas, next day you call,

And I forget what I swore…

-Ships